Happy 2nd Birthday!

Two years ago today, at 6:26 pm, my world changed forever. I got to see and hold this precious bundle for the first time. Everyone tells you things like "how your life changes" and "how much you are going to love this baby", but there is absolutely no way I could have prepared myself for the love that I felt in my heart when I saw her. There is no way that I could have believed that I would love this girl more and more everyday. I don't know how it's possible, but it's true. I have journaled for Meyers the last two years. A friend of mine does it for her kids, and I thought I would try it. I really didn't think that I would keep up with it, but I have. I write whenever I get a chance telling her what she is doing new and anything else I deem important. It's kind of personal and private because sometimes I tell her silly stories or get really mushy telling her how much I love her. To be honest, I don't even like it when John reads it because it's so personal to me, but I let him. I mean, he is her dad and all....:) But since I'm doing this as a baby book/documentation for her. I wanted to write a "journal entry" to her on her 2nd birthday on the blog. I can't believe I'm letting all 5 people that read this into my private words for her, but here goes......

Sweet Girl,

I can not believe it has been two years since you came into our world. You have provided so much joy for me and your daddy. We fell in love with you on April 1, 2009 and continue to fall more in love with you as each day passes. You are our world now. We have no idea what we did before you. And if we knew how wonderful having you in our lives would be, we would have had you sooner:) But God had a plan, and I'm thankful for that.

April 2009

I have so enjoyed watching you learn and grow over the last two years. You are a big girl now even though you are still my baby:) I am constantly torn between freezing time and wanting to see what else new you do next. I want you to continue to grow and learn because that's what you are supposed to do, but I could cry right now thinking about you going to preschool this fall, much less kindergarten in 3 years, and don't even get me started about the future milestones you will come to. I just hope and pray (literally) that I have taken enough pictures and documented your life enough because I always want to remember each stage of your precious life. I don't want to ever forget the little things about you that are so sweet and cute and funny.....like how you cross your legs at the ankle when you sit down, or how you used to roll your tongue, or how you always want milk when we get in the car, or how you make the surprise face and put your hand over your mouth when we ask you something that you want to do, or how you could put up one finger when we asked you how old you were on cue...every time, but now two fingers is kind of hard for you, or how "Itsy Bitsy Spider" makes you so happy and you make Poppy sing it ALL the time, or how we sometimes have to sing "Wheels on the Bus" to get you to eat dinner (frustrating....but I don't want to forget), or how you love your little people nativity set and know who everybody is (including the animals), or how you LOVE your flashcards and know all of them very well, or how you used to always cry when I dropped you off at the nursery, but now you go right in like a big girl there to see your friends, or how cute you look when you do your baby sign language, or how much you LOVE your zebra and could bounce on it forever, or how you used to army crawl around everywhere for so long, or how you love to swing at the park and usually cry when we leave, or how you could recognize all letters of the alphabet at 23 months, or how you do your "role call" and say everyone's name that is in the room, or how much you love to be rocked, or how dairy products (milk, yogurt, cheese) are pretty much your favorite foods right now, or how we will forget to pray at dinner and you put your little hands together to tell us you want to pray, or how you have always called your daddy "da da", but just recently started calling him "daddy" and it sounds so sweet, or how you love your pacifier and call it "binky", but you give it to us so sweetly when we ask you for it, ......I don't want to forget any of these sweet things that you have been doing over the last year, and yet I know I've forgotten some, and that makes me a little sad. If I could freeze time, maybe I could remember them better:) But I look forward to watching you grow and learn and continue to do sweet and cute and funny things in your next year of life.

April 2010

Your sweet spirit is something that has been the same since you were born until now. You are so laid back and mild-mannered. I love how loving you are. Even when you were a little baby, you were so soft and gentle wanting to pat me or touch my cheek. You still do that. It's completely adorable how you pat my back when you hug me. You walk around and do the same things with your baby dolls. I know a lot of toddlers love on their baby dolls, but I like to think you show them love because of the love we show you. We love on you all the time for lots of reasons....you are so adorable that I can't keep my hands off of you. I want to hold you and squeeze you. I want to constantly "eat" your chubby cheeks and tickle your sweet neck. I want to kiss your puffy little hands and each puffy little finger. I could go on and on....We also love on you because we want you to know how much we love you. We tell you all the time. We make up silly songs about it, we talk about it with you. I think you understand, but I know you understand when we hold you and kiss you. And I want you to go to bed every night knowing and feeling how much unconditional love we have for you. There is nothing that you could ever do to change that. One day, I hope and pray that you can understand the unconditional love that Jesus has for you because of the unconditional love we have for you.

Happy 2nd Birthday, Sweet Girl!




I love you more than words can say!

Love,
Mama